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daily living encouragement

Blameless with Great Joy

When life makes you numb and hope is nebulous you need to be awakened.

Worshipping the Sun - Day 143 of Project 365

Awaken Me

I finally had a moment to grieve but nothing would come forth. I sat there as the warm water rushed over me yet my soul felt cold and numb.  I wanted to cry but the tears lay dormant in my heart.

Once again I found myself in an all too familiar situation.

Once again I was allowing His truth to be buried under the rubble of destruction and pain. It wasn’t just any destruction, it was human demolition. The kind that hurts to the core: hatred, lies, gossip, and anger.

Even though it has been well over 6 years, since the last time I had a person physically and emotionally rip my world apart with their insecurity, lies, anger, gossip and their unstable mental health I still shuttered.

Through God’s grace, I came to a place of forgiveness without any apologies.

So how did I end up here, staring at the same open wound? I found myself once again reliving all of those feelings. Those feelings that had found calm in the midst of the storm were now being stirred and haunting me to the core. I was afraid and confused.

I sat there shaking–another human tornado was out to destroy.

The battle within had begun long before I noticed. In the midst of the darkness, flashes of His truth would cross my mind. The words that echoed deep within my soul sounded like this:

He is my refuge.

He is Truth.

He shines in the darkness.

He is for me, not against me.

Do not fear.

He fights for me.

Oh God, I want with all my heart to believe these truths.

The battle began! God’s truth against the lies that felt so real at that moment. I was fighting the present pain and at the same time the words and feelings from long ago.

God gently nudged, “Don’t fight it. Let yourself go there.” I’ve got you.

As I sludged through the mud of yuck trying to dig myself out, I kept slipping.

He fought for me. He whispered His truth.

He took me in His arms and said, “Let me!” In the shadow of my wings, my dear child find refuge.” (Psalms 91:4)

I couldn’t fully let myself go there. I was not going to let myself cry. I didn’t want to revisit that grave. Not again. I continued there in the darkness silently weeping, fighting, praying. Cold.

God was relentless. He continued whispering. Then, I finally let go.

His truth broke the numbness.

I began to feel but instead of more yuck what I felt was warmth at my fingertips. Oh, it was a bittersweet sensation of His love and my pain. Here’s the thing when we numb we can’t selectively just numb out the hurt we also numb out the good. He knew I was ready but I was afraid.

The flood opened wide and the tears began to trickle down. I was reminded of why I wouldn’t allow myself to feel. It hurts too much to hold the pain, see it exposed. His warmth took over my heart, and the tears turned into sobbing.

It was a strange feeling of emotions–freedom and pain.

Once again, the tears came to a halt. I was unable to fully embrace it all. “It’s too much. It’s just too much!”, I yelled. He whispered, “I don’t want you to fully embrace it alone. I’m here with you.”

I sobbed, “Oh Lord, why are people so evil? Why would anyone do that to me?”

I was overcome by the pain and the evil nature of the people involved. I bawled until the streams dried up.

He let me cry. God held me in His arms. He didn’t condemn me for my thoughts and feelings that I’m sure at the moment were in some shape or form, irrational.

But this is what gets me, this part right here–He gently approached me and He began to whisper His truth. His truth began to rise up to the depths of my heart out of the rubble and darkness. Then He ever so sweetly reminded me:

I rescue you.

I am here with you. I can help you Love your enemies.

Pray for your enemies.

I am greater than this evil.

I am your Healer.

Out of ashes, you will rise.

You will stand blameless with the fullness of joy before His presence.

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy. Jude 24

My lips uttered their names.

The names of my enemies. And I began to pray.

“Lord, I don’t hate them but I also don’t know how to love them. Help me feel your healing hand. Help them see your Truth. Your salvation.

Awaken in me, Lord. Awaken in me your love. I want your peace. I have walked around in the darkness buried by the lies.

Arise, oh my soul, Arise.

I trust you! I believe your truth. Not for one minute have I doubted Your greatness in the midst of this but still I carry the burden, my joy has been robbed. My soul is downtrodden.

Awaken in me, oh Lord.”

This has been going on in my head for about thirty minutes in between sobs and silence.

He calls me again, “Arise, arise my beloved.”

He brought me to my feet and my hands went up in the air. I am not a “hands in the air” kind of girl, but nevertheless, my arms stood there suspended, hanging in mid-air symbolically saying to God–It’s yours, take it.

The pain I was holding just a few minutes ago, in the palm of my hands, was now being handed over at His feet. I believe, help my unbelief.

“Help me Lord, help me leave this in your hands. Awaken your truth in me that has been buried in the ashes” “

At that moment Chris Tomlin’s song began playing, and with boldness and with tears I sang:

“Let faith arise.  I lift my hands to believe again. You are my refuge. You are my strength. As I pour out my heart….. I remember you are faithful God forever.”

Surely, I will rise like the sun in the darkness. Let the Smile of your face Shine on me, Lord. Psalms 4:6

Sometimes we have to call our faith to rise up out of the darkness. Not because we don’t believe but because it has been buried in the rubble of destruction and pain.  You can’t see clearly and it all becomes nebulous but we are not without hope.

Sometimes we have to call our soul to awaken and to rise out of the ashes. Not because we have lost our hope but because we are weak.

Even though we have been holding on with a tight grip, our hands go numb and we lose feeling, we lose our joy. The truth gets distorted and we begin to question.

At that moment He holds out his hand and reaches for ours, to help us– Arise!

Arise my friend. May He awaken in you, what He has given to YOU. Don’t just claim His truth, but believe it. Don’t just let him save you from eternal damnation let him save you from the schemes of the enemy that cross our paths throughout our day to day. Love arise in us even if you have to remind ourselves of it every 10 minutes.

You are not alone. He rescues you!

“Arise and shine for your light has come and the Glory of the Lord rises upon you. Isaiah 60:1

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What are ways you find encouragment in the midst of hard times?

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  1. Beth Saav says

    November 11, 2012 at 6:06 pm

    Amen!

    Reply
    • Inspired By Family Mag says

      November 11, 2012 at 6:15 pm

      Thanks for your support and prayers!

      Reply
  2. Malia says

    November 12, 2012 at 6:22 am

    I have found in encouragement in the honesty and in the scripture.
    Malia

    Reply
    • Inspired By Family Mag says

      November 12, 2012 at 11:36 am

      So glad! Thanks for stopping by!

      Reply
  3. Trisha @ Inspiration Laboratories says

    November 12, 2012 at 11:17 am

    Well said. I am so thankful we can lean on Him when we are down and that He brings us up again.

    Reply
    • Inspired By Family Mag says

      November 12, 2012 at 11:36 am

      Trisha, Thanks for the scripture you shared on your comment feed: James 2:13 Mercy triumphs over judgment. I am so thankful for God’s mercy and grace.

      Reply
  4. PragmaticMom says

    November 12, 2012 at 3:55 pm

    You are an inspiration to me about forgiveness which I am very bad at. I am more the vengeful type. Amen! And I am sure things will get better with your wonderful attitude!

    Reply
    • Inspired By Family Mag says

      November 12, 2012 at 4:48 pm

      Pragmatic Mom, I wish I could say each time I am hurt I respond in a way that is glorifying to God. Unfortunately, I don’t always respond in a way that I should but in His strength I am trying to in this situation.

      Reply
  5. Evie says

    November 21, 2012 at 7:14 am

    Your words could be my very own with the situations I have been going thru the last 9 months. I am thankful for God putting your encouragement in front of my very eyes to remind me of truth. I had to fight back tears as I read this because I read it in a public place….but they are tears of peace. God strengthen you and bless you.

    Reply
  6. Inspired By Family Mag says

    November 21, 2012 at 7:28 am

    Evie, You are so sweet to give me words of encouragement in the midst of your pain. May the Lord continue to show you His truth and that it would sustain, strengthen and bring you hope and joy. For our hope is not wishful but it’s based on Him. Thanks for stopping by and sharing. This Gratitude project has also really helped me find perspective: http://inspiredbyfamilymag.com/2012/10/30/21-days-of-gratitude-challenge-for-the-whole-family/. Hugs, Mari

    Reply
  7. Rosemary Borde says

    March 18, 2013 at 11:50 am

    I have been on a Black list in Boston Massachusetts since 1994.Jobs to care for my children denied, my daughter now is being denied employment, and she has a 3 year old child.
    I am denied care by physicians, I made it known to the President of the USA in 1994, the 589 union President, as well as the Director of the Division of Employment and Training City Hall MA, I want to live, and help my family, It has been 19 years of suffering. Rosemary Borde 1 Universal St. Apt.#10, Framingham, MA 01702
    I have never been offered a job to provide for my family, the hate from high principalities that controlled the credit rating in Boston, Ma destroyed my every attempt to establish work, my daughter’s life was threatened where a 40 pound window suddenly fell from the window frame on her job, and the doctor attempted to hide the cause of her injury, she survived because of the creator. I am hated because I tried to help someone, in representing them in dispute of equal rights, and justice for this reason the organization an embodiment of people in power over the union destroyed my life, and the life of my family, where I would never ever work again in Boston MA, and now that I am older after 19 years of being unemployed, I am no longer in my youth, or an asset as labeled as deemed be doomed.

    I hate evil intentions, especially when I have never had any intention or desire to bring harm against anyone, yet; my life and every possibility to live a prosperous life, was intentionally and deliberate destruction of my life determined not to allow me to ever prosper, and how my family suffered along with me.

    I am not dead yet, but each day of my life I cry for the years of suffering and pain only because I tried to help someone.

    I know the creator loves me with all the darkness, I pray for my children now who’s lives are being deemed, hopeless because I believed in helping someone.

    I was taught to do unto others as you would have the do unto you, but in my case my life was severed before I had an opportunity to live.

    Reply
    • Inspired By Family Mag says

      March 19, 2013 at 6:28 pm

      Rosemary, I am sorry to hear all that has happened to you. I pray that you will find peace in His love.

      Reply
  8. Jen says

    November 15, 2015 at 4:54 am

    Sister, I’m s sorry for the upheaval. Thankful that you can see Jesus walking near by and holding all things together with His power and love. Thanks for giving us a glimpse into how to pray and encourage you.
    Jenny

    Reply
    • Inspired by Family Mag says

      December 2, 2015 at 4:58 am

      Hi Jen, Thanks for the words and prayers. They are always appreciated. ~mari

      Reply

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