I normally don’t share like this on my e-zine because I have a blog for my personal family life ramblings but I really feel like I need to write this to encourage you in your journey. I purposely left out the details of the situation because my hope is not to exalt the evil being done but instead to bring hope to the downtrodden that have found themselves in my place and to remind them that we can stand blameless with great joy before Him! Can I hear an amen!
I sat there, while the warm water rushed over me yet I still felt cold and numb. I wanted to cry but I couldn’t. I finally had a moment to myself and nothing would come.
Once again I found myself and His truth, buried under the rubble of destruction. Not just any destruction but human destruction the kind that hurts to the core: hatred, lies, gossip and anger. Even though it has been well over 6 years since the last time I had a person physically and emotionally tear my world apart with their insecurity, lies, anger and their unstable emotional health, but still I found myself reliving all of those feelings that had found calm in the midst of the storm stirred once again. I sat there shaking, another human tornado was out to destroy.
In the midst of this darkness, flashes of His truth would cross my mind:
He is my refuge.
He is Truth.
He shines in the darkness.
He is for me and I have nothing to be afraid.
Suddenly His truth breaks the numbness and I begin to feel a little warmth at my finger tips. Quickly my tears turn into sobbing. Suddenly they come to a halt. Again I am overcome by my situation and the evil nature of the people involved. More sobbing.
His truth begins to rise up once again, from the rubble and the darkness. And he ever so sweetly reminds me:
Love your enemies.
Pray for your enemies.
He is greater.
He is our healer.
Out of ashes you will rise.
You will stand blameless with fullness of joy before His presence.
Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy. Jude 24
I utter their names. I pray.
“Lord, I don’t hate them but I also don’t know how to love them. Help me feel your healing hands. Help them see your Truth. Your salvation.
Awaken in me, Lord. Awaken in me. I want your peace. I have walked around in the darkness buried by the lies.
Arise oh my soul. Arise.
I trust you. Not for one minute have I doubted your greatness in the midst of this but still I carry the burden, my joy has been robbed. My soul is downtrodden.
Awaken in me, oh Lord.”
This has been going on in my head for about thirty minutes in between sobs and silence.
Finally, the silence is broken as He brings me to stand on my two feet and my hands go up in the air. I am not a hands in the air kind of girl but nevertheless, there they were hanging in the air symbolically saying to God, “it’s yours.”
“Help me Lord, help me leave this in your hands. Awaken your truth in me that is buried in the ashes “
At that moment I lifted my pain to Him and Chris Tomlin’s song began playing and with boldness and with tears I sang:
“Let faith arise. I lift my hands to believe again. You are my refuge. You are my strength. As I pour out my heart….. I remember you are faithful God forever.”
Surely, I will rise like the sun in the darkness. Let the Smile of your face Shine on me, Lord. Psalms 4:6
Sometimes we have to call our faith to rise up out of the darkness. Not because we don’t believe but because it has been buried in the rubble of destruction and pain and you can’t see clearly. Sometimes we have to call our soul to awaken and to rise out of the ashes. Not because we have lost our hope but because we are weak. Even though we have been holding on with a tight grip, our hands go numb and we lose feeling, we lose our joy. At that moment He holds out his hand and reaches for ours, to help us rise again.
Arise my friend. May He awaken in you, what He has given to you. Don’t just claim His truth but believe it, even if you have to do it every 10 minutes.
“Arise and shine for your light has come and the Glory of the Lord rises upon you. Isaiah 60:1
What are ways you find encouragment in the midst of hard times?
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